Life is so complicated, thats how I feel at the moment. Life is just overwhelming me. I feel ok in general, but not ok at the same time. It's odd.
I think its Anxiety, which I've had at times in the past, just not in this form.
This isn't drinking related I don't think, but perhaps its something that drinking has been covering up? The urge to pack up and move to a place where there are less people, less traffic, less noise and no wifi has hit me more than once. I think perhaps this has all been building for a couple of weeks and now is consuming my thoughts.
I need a break from my life, and perhaps in the past, alcohol was that break? So now I need to find a new way to get a break, without actually going anywhere. Meditation might be the answer, but I have never been able to do it successfully. Or maybe this is just a weird stage that will pass.